the grace I learn from him...

So....having a 4 year old boy with a very dramatic personality, who likely should be in preschool, but his Mama doesn't have the funds, vehicle or desire to have him there just yet...who is probably understimulated at times because his Mama believes in the power of play, realizing once he starts school his 'play' is limited from that time forward, for the rest of his life...well...it makes for some crazy days at times, and a fury of emotions run wild in this home with a little boy who is very much like his Mama...but he has much more grace than I....

The morning started off rather frustrating...

So, I, of course feel guilty at the reactions I have at times, and...in typical Bredin fashion...apologize over...and over...and over again.

So I just now say to him again..."Jonah...I'm sorry I get so upset at you sometimes....you know I love you, right?"

"Of course I do, Mama...of course I do. Don't worry...I still love you..."

I think he's forgotten already, as he seems to do...the fury of a 4 year old mind that forgets what I've asked him to do only moments later...also brings some redemption, as he 'forgets' my short-comings...and loves me well and unconditionally as though I am a perfect Mama.

I wish I had that un-grudging heart more than I do. I learn so much from this boy.