...I have been getting a ton of inspiration from
pinterest...not that I'm actually following through on all my 'inspirations', but...my goodness...I WANT to. I aspire to be this super crafty, awesome cook, cleaner, housewife, artsy teaching Mom, super friend, amazing....everything...and...I am just not quite reaching my goals. But...I am realizing that I am harder on myself than anyone else is. chances are, if you're judging me...you're going to be disappointed no matter what I do...so...I need to just give up a little...be myself, and...remember that I am just...me. I can develop skills and learn new things and find new loves and inspirations, but...the core of who i am...is the core of who I am. Sometimes when I look at other people's blogs, though inspiring...I am left feeling envious, and disappointed in myself that I am not more like
they are...but that's silly. I know this is true. I read my dear friend, Angie's
blog yesterday...and found myself wishing I had the eloquence to write such a post, because it is truly how I feel. Hope you don't mind I put a link to your post, Ang. If I know you, though...you'll be honest with me and let me know. That's one of the things I love most about you, ya know: your honesty.
Anyways...read her post, and pretend its my post, because I don't have the energy to re-iterate what she wrote.
I really must go lie down while Jonah is still napping. I have 6 weeks, give or take (hopefully 'take') to go until this babe is in my arms, instead of sucking the life out of me from inside my belly...I'm anxious. nervous. excited. a little scared. worried about sleep-deprivation...sad about 'the three of us' no longer being just that...and a host of other things, but...really, the deepest part of me can't wait to see who this active little baby is...to put a name to him/her...and to have this child in my arms...
So...here is another stunning picture of yours truly. Enjoy. :)
And another, even more enjoyable picture, because...he's just so darn cute:
2 comments:
Hey you! I also read Angie's post and it was really encouraging! Do not be too hard on yourself...it only makes us sad and depressed! I miss you. We need to chat soon. xox
Kris, you look awesome!! These last 6 weeks are so hard. But they are so important for your sweet little babe to stay in there, all safe and sound, and keep cooking for just a little bit more. :) I know you know that, but sometimes I would still have to remind myself of that, in those long, uncomfortable last 6 weeks. And yes, you are waaaaaay too hard on yourself. I spent most of my teenage years wishing I was like you! You are so pretty, funny, sweet, happy, loyal, kind, uber talented, and the list goes on. And if you weren't all those things, I don't know how we would have stayed friends. ;) But I am learning those same lessons...to be content with the core of who I am and to celebrate that. To push myself when I need/want to, but to know that the core of who I am, was created that way for a reason. I want my kids to see that I embraced who God really made me to be, not that I was always looking at other people and trying to imitate them. And you are just at the beginning of this journey. Your babes are still small and there is lots of time for crafts and cooking and projects. But, the most important thing you are doing, is being with them each day, doing the day to day with them. You really are such a natural mama, who already has one of your babes adoring you, and I know that as soon as this one arrives, he/she will look up at you, with their big eyes, and fall in love with their mama right away. Enjoy these last 6 weeks with you and Jonah ( i know it's hard!) and I am praying that this Christmas present you are carrying will arrive early!! love you so much, my beautiful friend. xoxoxoxoxo
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