- a summer immersed in a Christian community at the place we began our married life together ten years ago...first time back in 8 years...'doing ministry'...uprooting my little family and plopping ourselves into a fish-bowl life...with two little boys in tow...and how different I feel at the end of it than I did in the beginning...or even half-way through, for that matter...
- leaving our car in a junkyard in New York...getting 200 bucks for scrap metal...
- coming home, and all the kindness and generosity we were shown from people having
pitymercy on us...a friend who drove 30 hours in 2 days to rescue us and bring us home... - how home is awesome...but things are different...
- my Dad is not well...and though I've never before dreaded getting old...I do now
- my best friend moved away
- my baby only has a few more days before he goes to kindergarten and life as we know it...changes again
- my church...is still 'in transition'...and I have no idea where I fit...
- I see people around me striving and seeking goals and ambitions...and I have no idea what mine are...within the four walls where I sit...or outside...I reprimand myself for my lack of discipline...and reprimand myself for feeling like I need it...I'm a mess.
- I consider a paleo diet...yet can't seem to stop eating junk food
- I bought a car that will fit a third child in the back seat, yet I wonder if that will be necessary...and am not quite ready to go down the road of 'trying' just yet...and wonder if I even have the patience for a third child...I'm barely hanging onto any smidgen of patience as it is, these days.
Nice to get THAT down on paper...errrr....screen.
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